I recently sat down with Leo Cummings III to chat on his podcast, Pull Up a Chair. Leo is a longtime friend of mine. Every time we sit down to catch up, we get super deep AND laugh hysterically. If you know me at all, you know this is my preferred communication style.
Read MoreIf you’ve read other posts in this series, you know that about a year into my 18 month return to the Divine Feminine, I had a breakdown. And I thought, “okay, this is officially rock bottom.” I had called in experiences that left me with only two choices: to break down and heal repeated cycles of hurt, or to just stay broken. I wanted to be broken down so that I could then be restored. And I was.
But first, I spent a couple of days on the floor weeping, and I remember feeling despair like I’d never known. My immediate reaction was the one I’d relied on over and over again throughout my life– even though I had worked hard for a year to uncover my Divine Feminine, but in this moment of despair, I wanted my Wounded Masculine energy back.
I wanted to put up walls and tell myself the other person is the problem.
It’s easier to do that.
Read MoreMy journey to uncovering my Divine Feminine started because of an imbalance in my relationship with Brian. Our wounded energies and unhealthy patterns revealed to both of us ways we needed to heal. In some ways, I wish we hadn’t had to hurt and harm each other to discover this, and in some ways, I’m so grateful that the person who got to see my woundedness the clearest was someone I trust and love as much as Brian.
Read MoreI remember watching Frozen II and crying in the movie theater because of how much I connected with Elsa as she waded through her Dark Night of the Soul. In the opening scene, she’s surrounded by her loved ones by a crackling fire, playing games, and instead of enjoying the intimacy, she’s distracted by a voice that’s calling her into something new. No one else hears the voice, but to her, it’s the realest thing she’s ever heard.
Read MoreYesterday I shared how true unconditional love for others and yourself can lead to healing and wholeness.
But I’d be lying if I didn’t mention that before self love becomes a liberation, it will be a burden.
This work is not for the faint of heart. Eighteen months ago, once I realized I needed to release my masculine self in order to be returned to my true self, a whole, incorporated, soul, I had to walk through a Dark Night of the Soul.
Because in order to return to who you were made to be, you have to walk back through all the shit you’ve experienced in this life.
Read MoreIf you do a quick Google search, you could learn enough facts and talking points about the concepts of divine masculine and feminine to get you through any dinner party conversation. You’d find information about how the divine masculine and divine feminine have been present in various spiritual traditions and belief systems throughout history. You’d find lists explaining that divine masculine usually represents qualities like strength, action, logic, and rationality, while divine feminine represents qualities like intuition, nurturing, creativity, and emotional intelligence.
But facts and truth are two sides of the same coin, and no amount of internet searching can replace what I’ve experienced in the past eighteen months of my life, ever since I found out about the concept of divine masculine and divine feminine.
Read MoreI arrived in Fayetteville, Arkansas a few days ago. I walked outside on the balcony of my friend’s Airbnb and was immediately greeted by two red cardinals. Signs and synchronicities. Ok. I’m here. I surrender. It’s time.
Read MoreIn many ways, I think we’ve become too comfortable with negative emotions. Bitterness, resentment, shame, anxiety…these aren’t natural byproducts of being alive but our inner guide (God) showing us that we are not in alignment with our desire, our core energy.
Read MoreFor me, Sundays are a day to nourish my soul. I wake up and ask, “What would replenish me today?”
Read MoreThe years 2011 - 2014 are a bit of a blur. I don't remember everything, but I remember the way I felt after coming home from work each day. I remember crawling in bed night after night thinking to myself, "I just worked my tail off, but did I actually accomplish anything? I worked hard, really hard for 12 hours today, but did I even make any money? Why am I working so hard and have nothing to show for it?" During those years, I could have won an academy award for my act. "How's business?" they would ask ...
Read MoreOur impulse to rebel is born from a desperate hunger to know ourself.
Read MoreI can count on two hands the number of women and men who have reached out to me in the past four days because they are struggling. While each of their stories are different, they do have a common theme. I am humbled and honored to be a safe place for them to share vulnerably. Yet I know for each person who shows up at my door and says, “No one knows, but I can’t keep living the way I’ve been living” there are many more who continue to struggle in silence.
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